If I listen to myself, that soft gentle voice inside, I feel love. If I honor my voice for my needs to feel better, I break the barrier and I feel love. It is there, it takes bravery to listen and even more bravery to accept. There is no experience from an early age for this journey of mine, only the experience to hold the barrier to that innermost gentle feeling. To hold, not to show, to protect not to be exposed. Experience of non acceptance if vulnerability is exposed. With curiosity I gently now keep learning and allowing these buried emotions to come up on the surface. Doors are opening. I am curious to see and feel what is behind those doors. Every open door teaches me something new, if (when) I accept, something now clicks in my system and energetic spread is like a domino effect. It affects those close to me. A new tunnel of wisdom and possibilities is now once again in our energy field. We feel closer. We connect deeper. 

Connection, it is our primal need to connect. It is our mechanism for survival, as human beings. I found it difficult to connect to others until I didn’t start connecting to myself. It is difficult to love others if I don’t learn about myself and eventually learn how to accept and love myself. For me it feels, now, that I can trust myself more and I can believe in myself more. Consequently, eventually, I started to learn and love others. Trust & believe, a powerful force that is taking me further day by day. Trust that I am ok, that I am safe, that I can give myself permission. Intuition is heightened and I can follow my own lead that makes sense to my own personal vision. And a belief that I am capable of anything I put in front of me, and with that internal lead I make conscious decisions according to my internal compass. And with the bumps on the road, when I notice, I take a step back to observe and feel once again before making a move. The move may not be the best, the smartest and the most wanted one, but I grow and I learn. I learn my limitations, and I learn how, if I want to, overcome it with kindness towards myself. And if I can accept my limitations, it is easier to accept others. Now, that’s empowering.